~Eternal c0nfUs!oN~ Life'S a MySt3rY

[Fobia] Im afraid of death and growing old.

2004-12-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

Well this post is sort of a presentation of my deepest fear. Death Ever since i was studying. . . that will be during kindergarten. . . I always get weird nightmares about dying and growing old and stuff. And they always make me break up in cold sweat. And they still come occasionally reminding me about my impending mortality. Its always scary, even as i age. And it is why i choose to believe in

Last time Im on the blog run.

2004-12-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

Well this is the last and most likely it will be very long before another post comes along. Its kinda weird to change life after like 18 years of studying. Now i don't have any academic goals. Feels kinda weird. There's no more academic goal and im sorta lost. And i don't quite like the computer games im playing the way i liked them while i was studying. . . It seems quite boring all of a sudden.

Sob.

2004-11-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

In 10th dec. Count it short holidays. Actually its only 2 days and im getting quite frustrated with whatever i do. And blogging doesnt help. Blah. T_T And ya nothing helps. . . really. nothing helps. After exams, for me its like im starting to live in wonderland, that is all to myself. And alone. T_T sob.

last post b4 As.

2004-10-27T20:16:00.001+08:00

Day of REVELATION. Thot thru it in like 5 minutes. Seriously. My last day on the comp. right b4 chem pract. . . really really made my choice. Im a student. Not a gamer. At least during the As. And the vacation i gave up. I have to make sure my future is smoother. . . so i decided. . . in i go on december 10th. . . so cya guys~~~~ gd luck for the As~~~~~

last post b4 As.

2004-10-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

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2004-10-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Ah. . . time to study again. . . seriously. . . if i can do well this time. . . i will be able to make it to whereever i wish. . . MUAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. . . but well, i think i will be able to make it : D. . . i just want to make sure i can have the same level of confidence as my phys teacher Mr Tan. . . he was able to - 10% from his expected score to see if he was able to get A. . . 10 % lor

starting my rusty engine

2004-10-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

starting my rusty engine. Hope it doesnt take long to oil. If it does there goes the As There goes my other dream future : D

erh. . . izit growing up or izit sumth else???

2004-10-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

Games get boring. But i still sit in front of the computer. Not for long already. : S And er, haiz. . . notes take up more time than anything else. . . : S x 10 Aiyah. Got back all the results. ABCDOUU. DIE SIA. Whats the point of taking S in the first place when i know myself. . . and i wont work??? : S : S : S : S : S AHHHHhhhhh. . . . . . . . . . . . Really, its time to buck up and bring

not that nice already...

2004-10-01T20:14:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS results out... and yah what to do... ABDO only... die la... but now really work liao... :S everytime say say say never do ... >"<. . . haiz... now doing right from the start... coz i believe i learn things faster than i can teach... or teachers can... so im gonna relearn. AND get what i came FOR.

ar. . . exams!

2004-09-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

I realised. Indulgence has made me numb to things. I could listen to the same CD over and over and over again consecutively for 20 over times. The songs' nice, but that's abit too much for a normal person right. . . At least i feel that way. . . and its prelims, but i still cant get rid of the habit of havign the computer by my side. . . hahas. Mayb there are other people out there who have the

MUG mug Mug mU9 mUg. . . ahhh~~~

2004-09-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

life's getting worse. . . only studying. . . cant even play in peace. . . bloody pissed. . . argh. . . studying is not that fun. . . but not doing has repercussions. . . Well the fear of that has made me quite paranoid. . . but then again. . . who cares. . . as long as you feel good can already right!. . . lala~~ sayonaras~~ study again!. . . -_-

The Mind.

2004-09-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today was reading a book on the mind. . . on the intellect. . . and how memories are formed. . . very interesting. . . but guess what. . . it was written by a mathematician. . . great! now i have something more to pursue. . . studyin mental networks using mathematical models. . . but relating to my life now. . . its like so Ffffreaaaking faaaarrr. . . Im still in a bochap mode. . . and its

Ah~~

2004-09-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

Time is running out. And im in full blast towards prelims. Doin nuthin much tho. . . just chionging what i tink can make me get my A. Hehe no worries man~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lalalalala~~~~~~~~ Just aim for that shot and take it~!

End of RmL. Lifes not a blog. Blog is just one way of training your mind.

2004-08-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

YEAH. YEAH. Tony Buzan brought out the ME in me. The weird me is back. The weird me who takes fancy in the weirdest of things. In intelligence, in techincality, in spirit and psychology. Im not fluent with words, so short it'll be. Its going to be prelims soon, and im super glad i read Tony Buzan's work. Its great. So great it can make people realise the potential they don't even know existed.

Day 28,29 - Project RmL

2004-08-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

YO~ Lifes weird. All's about studies. . . Should we go into MUGGER mode? Its well bad. . . people start to look as if they've been on the graveyard shift the night before. . . muahahahahas. . . well same with me. . . the SCHOOL stress is too much to handle i guess. . . i woke up @ 2 am thinking it was 6 in the morning and started to change into my uniform -_-"" yup guess you must be laughin

Day 24,25,26,27 - Project RmL

2004-08-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

The news is back. . . im back into magic craze wif bunch of friends. . . and its way cool, cause im recoverin my competitive self. . . tis is a good sign. . . and surely. . . im goin back to the old fun self. . . that ppl from Nj have not seen. . . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. . . and because of mocks and prelims. . . I've started studyin!!! and thanks to tony buzan. . . My brains

Day 21,22,23 - Project RmL

2004-08-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

Mood for studies. . . confidence's rising. . . frend told me its a good sign. . . hope i can pwn the papers. . . yaHHHHHH~~~~

Day 18,19,20 - Project RmL

2004-08-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

SLACKING. DOING NOTHING. STUDYING. MAKING MIND MAPs. And on monday. . . went to weifeng's house, well we had fun. . . sure friends are cool. . . now i know friends are why i play games. . . games played alone are so boring. . . ahhh. . . and time like 5 hours passed like 5 minutes. . . ahhh . . . well its gonna b tuesday. . . and im really tryin to finish my assignments~~~ lalala~~~

Day 16,17 - Project RmL

2004-08-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

well. . . been tryin hard to make mind maps for all subjects. . .startin with physics. . . ending with maths. . . and i found one important point for making those. . . they can promise me @ least a B. well thats good right? Now im starting with physics kinematics. . . im tryin to put down the most meticulous points and tiny details. . . so that i can hava a good overview as well as a nice

Special Episode - Study Grp proposal

2004-08-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

From recent and past anaylses . . . I haf concluded. . . that group study with all participating in making a summary for the relevant subjects will work very well. . . and methods that some think of can be passed on to those who have other ideas. . . this way. . . there will be alot of interactions. . . and if we're bored. . . we know what to do. . . we can bring cards along right. . . its always

Day 15 - Project RmL

2004-08-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

Reading tony buzan's boooookS recently. . . chose to read it . . . after quite some time. . . guess i still cant resist making myself super pro as tony buzan says he can make me. . . hahas. . . so there went me going around libraries looking for tony buzan books. . . First book . . . Use your head. . . literally. . . it means use that grey matter existing. . . what the book contains is simply

Day 12,13,14? - Project RmL

2004-08-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

Goddamit. Goddamit. The post for monday didnt come up. Or was it sunday? I cant remmber. Study then slept late then bad consequences. Bad memory. Know that but i just feel guilty not doing work. But wait! Thought it through these 2 days. Got a conclusion. Must revise before the work and drilling done can be effective right? So i just sleep and study first. I'll do it @ my own pace. Then im

Day 9,10 and 11 - Project RmL

2004-07-31T12:12:00.000+08:00

Lol. Been quite bored with the COMP. Good sign heh? Prefer to draw now. I draw everywhere. Draw everyone. Tryin out new styles. Draw anywhere anytime, as long as there is paper. Woo~~. Why do i feel bored? Seriously speaking, playin CS isnt fun. Why? Coz when you cant commit yourself to playin like 4 - 5 hours a day, you cant thrash people! And thrashing people is the only fun i get when playin

Day 8 - Project RmL

2004-07-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

Aha. . . today we shall stop ALL daily records. We talk about laughter. And what is laughter exactly. Reading a book on laughter now. . . didnt know it was a field of study until i read that book. . . it makes alot of sense yet its non-commonsensical. Its based on descriptions and behavorial science, so its like we observe and we note down what we see. Its all facts. No theories. No conjectures.

Day 7 - Project RmL

2004-07-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Erh. . . . . . today super boring. . . and my ulcer is getting worse and worse. . . its so painful. . . AHHHHH And today i was very gY. Really very gY. I commented on everything i saw. But i said it in my mind tho. I cant afford to offend everyone right. I say a kid rushing to take an empty seat when an old lady walked off to alight. I thot, what a little ass, its not like everyone is craving

Day 6 - Project RmL !!! Episode 100!!!

2004-07-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

This is my 100th post. cool. never thot it'll last that long. Was sick. Premonition yesternite. Lol! NO SCHOOL!. read chem kinetics. yeah. FInally im workin towards the A's. Coz the dreams out there for me to catch. Yeah. Anyone who wants a Q ban3 sketch of him or herself? Send me your pix. im in a process of making a sketch book of ppl in my life. Who are all in comic version. Sure cute wan.

Day 5 - Project RmL

2004-07-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. . . . . . didnt blog yesternite. Back @ arnd 12 am. Yujian's Bdae. . . was a bash i wud say. Was very very fun. . . and well. . . first bdae celebration that involved alcohol. Hahahaha. . . took a roija? think that was the name. a 82 red wine. well its not really an enjoyment for me. I don't take alcohol. but well, hahas give face mah. and well. . . i really took it and enjoyed

Day 4 - Project RmL

2004-07-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

Damn tired. . . sleeping at 1 am isnt fun. Aggggg. . . Agggggg . . . *Z Z zz Z zz ZzZ ZZ ZZzz. . . eh? oh i feel asleep. damn tired. tis is damn sad. I need more sleep. I'll b where im supposed to be in a moment. In school moods were higher with lotsa friends to talk to. . . V -.- V . . .came home from tuition. . . and still have to do work. . . yawn. . . didnt think much 2day. . . maths is more

Day 3 - Project RmL

2004-07-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

. . . !!! woke up @ 4. went for a morning jog. . . jogged until arnd hougang mall and then jogged all the way all. . . well its a really nice time in the morning. . . the world's a different place. . . well got me all up for school. . . for what i guess? yah FOR WHAT? so boring. . . haiz. . . well came home after quite some crap day. . . and now @ near 1 am im doing GP . . . im damn lousy @ it. .

Day 2 - Project RmL

2004-07-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

2day is even more boring . . . altho altho. . . i skipped S paper again. . . think its that place i hate. . . i just cant stay there more than 12 hours. well. . . guess i was pretty sick and tired. . . went right home. . . plus i was asleep only @ 2 yesterdawn . . . went home and stright to my bed. . . woke up 2 hours later. . . with no obvious help from the sleep. . . guess i'll sleep @ 10 and

Day 1 for project - Record my Life

2004-07-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

First day i'll record my feelings. X D. School's super boring. I felt like leaving after the lectures @ 11. Seriously. Then it was my shift for selling muffins @ the charity table for the sarawakian. NOT the sarakanianese as i heard some council guy said. Lolz. Sitting there i felt like a total doodz. i couldnt do any business. Guess im not cut out to be a businessman. I just didnt want to er. .

weird life. weird life.

2004-07-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

lets start... today theres not much to talk about... just wanna say sumth bout life. my life i guess. and how tits weird i guess. well... i see ppl studyin veri hard now... study outside... study at home... do everything to prepare for an exam... is this how an exam is supposed to be taken? i really wonder. this post is supposed to b in here in the afternoon. but welll... procrastination has

wow... fun day...

2004-07-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

2day is quite an eventful one... firstly... i finished one tutorial. yeah. secondly... talkd bout an upcoming outing in the afternoon... and yup... all these happened in the afternoon... and who knows why... and quite fun tuition... and... after tuition... quite depressed... got suaned. FM student cant do MC question... must piah summore liao... hate it when ppl take my only confident subject

Ah... what to do... I still like to sit infront of the com and multiTASK.

2004-07-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sitting in front of the computer. Doing my chem sh!tty work. Hate it. Don't we all do? Ok. maybe only me. But well. . . if i do it back in my room, most likely i'll fall asleep. even worse right! Ah.... got back MC and FM. . . well they were on time and on target. . . but the other 4 topics taken were sort of messed up. So messed up i really dont feel like touching it. . . but it seems my heart

Ahahahaha... time for things to get going~

2004-07-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

2dae. . .laz day b4 school starts again. . . and b4 i know it. . . its the last hurdle already. . . so fast. . . so fast. . . drove arnd abit yesterday. . . quite a scare. . . i never knew driving was so exciting. . . was my first time in that driver seat. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAs. . . and today. . . today. . . watched ye man shi jie. . . god am i touched. . . boo hoo hoo cried. . . gawddamit. . . the

death on sight. No retaliation totally. One man down Repeat!. ONE MAN DOWN!

2004-06-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

haiz... physics was a total disaster. guess its An E or below... gosh me gosh me... what to do... first time i felt helpless @ a test... gawddamit! ageing is realy a dangerous issue... not tt the paper was hard... guess its always only me huh... #@$*(&@%#($^#@$#@... well trying to get my chem to click now... hope it'll work... hope i'll not get nagged by tt kuku chem teacher who expects an A from

2004-06-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

eh hehehehehe... 3 items off the list for CT... 3 more... all i am noob @... HOW??? lalala... relax m8!... do my best... to salvage the sad CT... last CT b4 i go for the A lvl trials heh? 2mr its physics... hope i can do beta than C k... BLAHBLAHBLAH... 3-4 hours left for me... hope i can cramp all the useless info into my head... yahAHAHAHAHA!!!!

2004-06-27T14:26:00.000+08:00

gosh... 2mr's the start of the massacre week... at least it'll massacre a thousand me if I haf 999 clones takin tis CT wif me... bah alalalalala... well relax! i'll just haf to b enliten b4 the A's or im totally SCREWED!!!!!! After watchin sum southpark... well... wat i tink is... at least the authors are producing sumth... shud i b doin sumth that shows products at the end of the day? like shud

2004-06-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

BLEAH DAY!- GAY GAY GAY!!!!!!! I CANT CONCENTRATE... now its going to 9... im going to try to meditate... i thot it out... after alittle walk in the evening... yeah thats what i do when i start to slack too much... well my too much is actually too too too extreme for ppl already... ||-.- GAGAGAAGAGAGA~~~ well i hope my final struggle can bring up my score abit... i dun ask for alot... abit can

2004-06-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

Hysterical!- Not enough time again... my fault my fault... play play play... its real high time to kick some revision ass. Doodling here... doing shi3t... whateva~~ well the "quite" new comp is well... "quite" fun... not so much lag whatsoeva... just that IT TOTALLY KICKASS!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... lalala... tryin to make my own webbie backgrounds and stuff... welll games get in the way... and

2004-05-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

boo hoo hoo... so bz... but NO worries~~ after june hols. there's gonna b timE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!! hope im able to abide by my rules. Important events. 22th. first briefing for maths soc. and astro quiz rehearsal. 29th. last day of school. ASSMC. time to cut my hair to something i've never done b4. And theres election for Lion dance. 30th. Bring some J1 for othello beginner

2004-04-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

w00t. ahhh got some time to write tis dairy... all kept in the rusty cupboard back @ the kennel of mine X ] ... been tryin to start trainin for my olympiad comin in june... arh... the year has spun off in the right direction @ the wrong speed... now im tryin hard to catch up everything i missed... and im tryin to study... miracle huh... i did 2 tutorials on sunday.. thats today... weeeeee~~~ and

2004-04-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

ha..... so long nvr blog le... so bz so bz... life's more fulfilled eversince u find reality lurkin beside you. ah... inevitable lalalalalalala... the empires tryin to band... band... making us progress @ a faster pace... shudnt they do that long ago? .... ahhhhh... life's quite fun now... at ;l east i nvr fail chem = ] yay~~~~ niteoz

2004-03-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

eh hehehehe... common test is really a challenge. so common yet so... wah... fragged. totally fragged. what else to say... my physics haizz... chem worse... maths C paper... first time i took almost all the time... hell... a lousy empire that frags... i wonder what will the other top empires be like... worse? or just that they frag their members every test? hmmm preparing for Fmaths now... well

2004-03-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

er... 5 days for the first few days of the holidays w/o com... it was perfectly alright!!... got it back near weekend... well... 2 days is enuf for me... im gonna try to max out my score... now im doin physics notes while bloggin - = D... hahas good luck to all takin their exams... and to me 2... bb!~~~

2004-03-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

erh... erh... damn sian... dun feeeeeel like goin to school leh... got one week hols... anyway... boo hoo hoo... blah blah blah blah... blah... must work hard on chem... chem... z zzZ zz... gosh goin to sleep er... veri soon.Zz.z.zz... u guys can visualise? zZzzzz..z.zz. gosh... i needa go le... niteZZ Z Z ZzzZzzzz~

2004-03-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

er... most memoirable thing. PSC talk. SO INSPIRATIONAL. ALMOST CONVINCING. well... guess it all depends on me now... i have to work really hard to secure a place possibly in...erm... china? = D... hahahasss... tomoroww got quantum test... piahing now... to all who are studyin hard... gambateh neh!!

2004-03-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

aiyo... sian dae... cut hair...pon S paper... aiyo... sianz... damn sianz... play alot... doing chem notes... ~~ at least something useful...

2004-03-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

... veri tired... veri tired....

2004-03-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

erh... quite a useless day... nothing much done... one tutorial only... what a sllow rate... boo... did not like the day today... got quite a few bad recollections... very very mad and bad ones... firstly... for a very long time... i've not had evil thots like causing death... calling spirits... killing people... robbing muggin... u name it i have it... welll... this time its really spooky... its

2004-03-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

er... veri veri tired... going to sleep liao... slept @ 2.30 am in morn... bloody formatting... bud qwite fun la hor... went to scout for prezzies... prezzies......... prr...r...e...z...z.z.z..ZZzzzzz

2004-03-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

well... trying to piah GP... tatas

2004-03-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Erh... well... i have alot of questions ... like why cant i give up using the com... and do some of the things i desire? like cooking? or... drawing? or doing notes to prepare for exams? well... i figured it out... i just don't feel like not using the com ... its like a routine... and im lazy to change from the norm... altho i hate the norm... blah... and... i figured something out too... I lost

2004-03-03T21:09:00.000+08:00

boo hoo... only memoirable thing is the chess comp today... so lousy result... can only blame myself la... blah... boo... sad... lost to zhenjie... teo fren... and one ip siao zabor... call wad runyu huh... = | ... wawaaaaaa... sob sob... im so noob... why all the pro in othello never join chess club wan... malu me lor... sob... then now ... i so bo mood to do anything... sad...

2004-03-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

well... another boring day @ the empire. well... well...well... actually i felt like ponning that Spaper physics and well... i really regret i didnt. what a waste of time. Boo Boo. and well... im laggin in chem... and moving with physics plainly... boo hoo hoo hoo... i really feel like taking a 5 day break to chase my chem back. dono whether mrs cheng will allow or not. lol dream on hor. = |...

2004-03-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

well... i feel like piah ing every single tutorial i have on hand. wee... now im 2 tutorials faster in FM ooo... and 3 tutorials slower in 2 other subjs... -.-... so still... im laggin... laggin... la a a ag g g ggggiinnn... ... blahhhhhhh... well... im living well fulfilled. and erm, i enjoy listening to music more than seeing the com... which @ the same time spoils my eyesight... hmmm... ok im

2004-02-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

use sunday afternn to do work. different from others huh. must work liao gam ba... z.zzz.zzzz... well sleep more first >>> no mood to blog... finish tutorial first = \

2004-02-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

he he he he he!!! nice show. cuisine show by zeng guo cheng taiwan host = )... i love to tour... eaat... always dreamt of earning that much $$ so that i can go on tour all over the world... eating @ every stop... ahhhh dreams... well i'll work hard now... at least i'll try... i must work more... im still too slack... i can feel it... i can see no one who is working hard online frequently... well

2004-02-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

tidy up room, clearing up mess, trying to reconnect my life. trying to become pro. So buzy, still got time for gunb. still got time to blog. contradictory huh. ; )

2004-02-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

aiya. should do flash back. Just moments ago, i nearly nearly went to give my sis a very tite slap. and i mean it. and i guess i might just get her tooth out. she was SUCH a BITCH. not the first time btw. she has been like that. she bothered me to ask a fren for huang2 cheng2 tix... and in the final moment, she told me forget it. WAD THE F. hmmm. i just feel like hittin someone. Or just blasting

2004-02-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

ITs so laggy!!. cant blog wif good mood. anyway. i gota do work so much work bubbyes

2004-02-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

Beepz. Got awhile to blog. just to add abit of thots. I feel very helpless when attending Spaper lessons. One kind of feeling i wud die very jialat for the test. So much things to do. So little energy and time. 2morow have to entertain IP kids. Astronomy. And tomorrow will be late day liao. I want time!!! Time!!! I want energy to study!!! I don't want to have the *touch book = sleep* syndrome I

2004-02-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

high time to get serious. bloggin freq drops le. Gotta prep for exams. and activites more than J1. imposible man. haish. tatas

2004-02-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

one point to note only. i finally figured it out. i should spend more effort into studying. one more extra hour converted from playing to studying gives me five more marks. Its been a long time since i got really fulfilling satisfaction. How i hope to see the day of 4 As. If i would really study. would i get my deserved results? I havent really seen my exam oriented self for quite some time.

2004-02-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

late nite. sad. shud b sleeping. buzz. yayas nitez

2004-02-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

Argh... bloody hell, slept late, feeling so pengz. tired la. TIRED LA. then chiong home straight after school. reach @ arnd 3 +. wanted to sleep. But, i know i must finish work, then nvr sleep. after bloggin should be sleep bah. then 2ml got go ACjc carnival wor. `~ Lol... next week got 2 test also. haish. zao liao... bubbyes

2004-02-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

decided to blog bit more. lolz. just curious why i got very weak heart -.- seeing a very tight situation i get very tight in the stomach. butterflies in the stomach? all seems to make sense to me now. But it seems some things don't move the way i see they would. hmmmm. bah. bah. bahbyes

2004-02-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

boring day. nothing much to say tho. sad huh. no life kia. But yay. finally i know i can do it. i finally completed my 2.4 lolz. timing arnd 2 minutes better than last time wan. guess the ankle weits are really helping. for the last 100+ m stretch i ran like xiao ding dong liddat. lol. chen chao saw me zoom pass and he asked why i was piah-ing like crazy... weee~~~ and i jumped 250cm @ first

2004-02-18T20:09:00.000+08:00

Argh. Threatened. very threatened. boo. one of the mages in my fellow lesson saed sumth that very much spited me to start off as a runner in my life once again. Now im doing everything with a force and there will be a result. I'll make sure i lead once again. Ahhhhhh. But for now, lets talk ... = X. aftrnn time... sumth unbelievable happened in Nj. A very tight situation occured. saving our dear

2004-02-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

helplessness. ya. tremendous will just to think bout it. Example. your credit card company sends you your new credit card. wooo. nice huh? postman sees it. wooo! he takes. You don't know. Your in the dark. He spends 5 k with your card, while you ponder @ home thinkin where's your damn card. And then, the bill comes. wOO!. 5 k. You ponder again. i hafnt got my card? then what happens? After

2004-02-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Woah, first time this year to stay @ home. during empire-on times. bloody viruses. have been @ me since sec that time. the first attack was 39.4 then i was permanently weakened. burr... burr... now and then i get fever attacks... burr... (shivers*) stayed @ home... sleep, sleep, do work, play, play, play... if u guys notice there was more play = X... hahas. really want to be serious. arh arh...

2004-02-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

wad a day, third day i have mild diahorrea = \, who knows, i may end up dead tomorrow. feverish also. what the hell, no mood to blog liao. just to say today is one of the days of Ld guild to be remember. for what i shall not reveal, for it'll cause trouble for me. cyas~ good health to all~

2004-02-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Morn- Woke up @ 6+ on saturday. No good. Its a saturday. I should be doing my assignments so that sunday is a good sleeping day. A good time for me to meditate, procastinate, and incubate ideas. Sadly, its ROAD RUN. getting dumber by the year > " <. Sorry to the apprentice mage department from the Empire, but this year the program absolutely sucks. alright. altho the sky was beautiful, the clouds

2004-02-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

BANG. one dead. BANG. 2 dead. I want to kill them. Just kill them all. Must they make my life @ home so bad? Why do i feel better @ empire even tho it sucks there? Why is it always this case? ARGH!!! Im feeling so F*cked up now. Feel like hitting someone or something hard with a baseball bat, or a drumstick. or even a hammer. or just my mace. Anything that deals damage will be fine. I just want

2004-02-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

Only memiorable thing that happend today was that face to face talk or rather (shoulder to shoulder) was super fruitful. Im getting really serious about stuff now. Im going on my latest mission, to score for my next physics test. to beat the 3A scholars. thats my new task, my new wish to be accomplished. S.H.E new CD came out le... juz so sad that im quite broke... only getting it next week. boo

2004-02-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

ergh... Morn. stoooopid routine.school.back home.play.sleep. hey! where is the STUDYIN PART.haiz I NEED TO STUDY!!!!!!! HELP!!!! I ONLY TOUCH THE LECT NOTES @ THE EMPIRE!!!! IM GOING DOWNHILL!!! IM DEAD SOON!!!! GOING HOME~~ I TAKE THE NOTES... aND ITS ALREADY 10.30 or SO THEN WHEN I FINALLY START TO READ... I FALL ASLEEP... IM GONE!!! QUICK!!! haiz. blogged erli @ near 9 oclck.

2004-02-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

2dae. tired. purely tired. tired of life. once again. hell T_T. Studies are starting to matter tome. seeing others gettin As without studyin... gettin As with studyin... Im startin to ask where i lack. but still, no answer. Im going to study very soon. maybe become a nerd or mugger or idiot or sumthing like that.but nvm. hope i get As for As and As for S pper. especially useless when they went

2004-02-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

urgh... Morn- slept @ arnd 12... quite tired. eyes are hot... needed the holy eyedrop. they bite my eyes as tho they were phenol... but they increased my attention span. which is good. Of coz. Went to the empire. and week starts. another day starts. another hour goes by. another minutes speeds off. another second just poofs~~> into oblivion. why cant we forget about time? do things as we please

2004-02-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

Morn.- 8 am woke up. with a start. felt very awake. because i slept @ 2 am. haish. i want to sleep erly. its a privilege. its a statement. Its a blessing. Sunday morning- flowers blossom and birds chirp. well. that'll be the case in the countryside. sitting outside @ ur doorstep watching @ the nature taking its own course. not bothering bout ur presence~ thats not reality as we all know. no

2004-02-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

new start. erli start. A saturday @ school. Not Cca Summore. hmph. damm sian. went erli Morn- @ guild room training my drumming. ~~ then got talk. surely insightful. brought to us by an andrew kong, a super high order counsel member who serves the organization MOE. > " > woo! he's good man. Not a good man... but REALLY PRO!. LAwyer? cum bachelor of science. went to london and rome? where do

2004-02-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

A new start. Bad start. Dawn- slept @ around 1 oclock, writing that report i nvr really have aptitude in. Took so damn long. Guess im just stupid. ~~ Super tired. Bud still, i had to go on... reached the empire with eyes hot like charcoals. a ...a... symptom i have. Its a notation, a hint, a direction for me in my life. - SLEEP. But @ service. wad to do? 2 sad training sessions passed. Hope i

2004-02-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

haiya!!! Life's becoming alittle wee bit better. Seems to be going back to myself again~! So... i need imaginative exercises!!! So, as an idea from Westside. Xijie ~. that mad priestess got her diary in martial arts mode . I shall make mine a more cryptic fantasy style. Yeah. Early dawn- Lowly magewarrior Nd opened his eyes to see the new start once again. Boringly, he took off to present

2004-02-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

bleah. sad case. short post le. bad day. lecture test peng. inter CT quiz pengz. =(... muz buck up le. study more. study more. study more. haish. bucking up going to everyone out there. be it ur a straight As or straight A level pass. Xp... ~~ lalalas... bubbyes...

2004-02-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

weeeee... s paper postponed... kool... came home erli... can do work and sleep erli le... hehes... muz study chem le... if not... S papers oso muz drop... wif the chem... = (... haiyo... school's so *nothing is going on @ all* except mi wearin my ankle weights... 6.8kg... yet i dun feel a thing... izit as bad as vincent saes? ankles are gone? or juz... aiyo... i dun feel a difference wearing

2004-02-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

er... im bloggin erli 2dae... afternoon and nite muz do work le. no more fooling around... and so sad cudnt go lion dance chu shi wif seniors and coach =X... haiz...bleah... bubbyes~~

2004-02-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

temperamental mouse. sob. stops and starts as i reconnect. subsequently, i have to put the bledy CPU right bside my monitor. how convenient. plucks. klucks. XP. haish. anywae, its the same... bud ignore the previous *blog's gonna stop indefinitely*... its on... juz that ... bah... bubbyes~~

2004-02-01T15:12:00.000+08:00

haiz. blog's gonna stop indefinitely... sadly... the com's screwed up. and the mouse is permanently down... sobz.sobz.sobz. so bad. maybe a blessing in disguise... =( bubbyes.

2004-01-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

erh... tired, gonna sleep erli 2dae... went to LionD training... PT ... nice... felt good... woosh... hehe... taught one junior drums... he was quite weird 2oo... seems that the first time he came... he said he knew everything and everything else... bud he dusnt noe how to zhuan3 hua1... PENGz... then actually he's other percussion quite good.... bud he sae he cant stand the sound -.-... pengz

2004-01-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

aiya... sian... slept late... went school tired... but never sleep in tutorial X0... then ... went to celebrate Ding bdae... seoul garden... jialat... add weight again le... -.-... muz start to lose it ... acutely... haish... ate way 2 much ... didnt think 2 much oso... did brainless kua zabor stuff lolz... haish... when can i get my week of rest huh... really time i need now is to rest... the

2004-01-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

T_T... T.T... T T... I_I... -.-... ^.-... ^^... -_-...haish. realisation of self punity... chem sucks... maths deteriorating... had never been quite socialable... lets just hope life gets better huh... seems that i've finnally start to realise myself... practical was done badly... then then... then... went on to S paper... realise my standards are just DUH... so little... i should have just go to

2004-01-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

Andy(x) = { sleep debt cannot be carried over, when u nid to sleep, u nid to. So dun act smart and stay up late, andy < x < andy } which makes me a person in deep sheit. ok. There is not enough time to study, not enough for Ccas and not enough for sleep. Sad. Im SO TIRED... Eyes are beggin me to sleep, conscience beggin me to do tutorials. Teacher's good ar... cannot but feel guilty -.- haish...

2004-01-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

too tired. too tired. hate myself for being so stubborn. too tired. im going to sleep veri soon. i hate myself. For being such a jerk. why muz i leave everything thats needs to b done till the last? I hate myself. too tired. too hopeless. too sleepy. ciao~ T.T

2004-01-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

aish... damn tired... juz to hi lite some of the !@#*&$! happenings 2dae... vin didnt not return me the liond rm key... then i was forced to stop my weekly monday nap -.-... then went to PE... dunnoe why oso... felt damn gidddddy... really gonged. and to qoute from teo & co. damn HINz man~~ then called home to ask why they called me-.- then sis start to fire me with her nonsense. from young till

2004-01-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

wahahahas... chu shi with coach... another viewpoint of life? hahas... vulgarities fly... one small fighting incident... they still enjoy it dont they? hahas... i enjoyed 2... then we went to lotsa places, new experience huh... X]... fun fun and more fun .. lol summore got $$... didnt expect that coming ;o ? hahas... then went to watch movie with vincent... ar... nice movie... 2 bad it was 2 late

2004-01-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

aiya... came back to write again after awhile... of thots... first... games... when was the last time i actually felt *waoh nice game?* instead of * im gonna beat u stupid com!!~~* and when was the last time games were form of pastime instead of *erm... tis game again? nvm...* now its sorta addiction... and i hate it. when was the last time i actually enjoyed faithfully? when was the last time

2004-01-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

hehe... 2nd new year dae. ate breakfast and watch TV, boring dae... everyone else seems to b doing some other useful stuff... been wastin time @ com for whole dae until near 4pm. haish. how i feel like goin to the sea and shouting everything out. or maybe juz lie there. but wait, the rain is out there...snatched my chance of goin out even to walk around...nvm... school's gonna start again... so

2004-01-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

aiyo... too tired... even forgot to blog. hahas. 30th of december of 2003 for the lunar calendar. i'll take that as a chance to fulfill wad i didnt when i tried to in 2003 on the normal calendar. sch performance. morning. still alrite in my view. 2 short for training. so i tink its satisfactory. but to that idiot who tinks she can do better, fook u! then went back anderson. the saddest year for

2004-01-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

New year eve eve. school's gettin sorta boring huh. nothing much to anticipate. except i found the excitement of finally handing in my assgnment. And, i still tryin to locate my long lost happiness in doing wad i enjoy most. thinking bout maths. X]. and went out for lion d some sort of REunion dinner. shud b the most successful outing we haf... seems really successful... except the food part. =X

2004-01-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

After much thot on a long bus journey... coz of peak hour traffic jam... and rain... i shud try to do more work rite... seriously start to work towards goal... and on-ing the com @ nite i feel it more like a burden now... finally i achieve that feeling... i tink its time i start to hate the com ... as in sleep comes first. hope tis time i succeed. and its pretty late now. i shal stop and go do my

2004-01-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

2dae is one bz dae. 2ml will b one 2. point form. concise. feelingless. almost dead. - woke up erli... grandma switchin to my aunts house. well... shudnt sae 2 much lest i saed the wrong thing. So end case. ok one thot, why are there so many kinds of ppl and my grandma belongs to the kind whose not so good? Tryin to be kind at least ( i didnt sae the max i cud, leave space for imagination k.) -